So I'm on the way to work this morning - setting land speed records in the jeep again because I'm the usual 7 minutes behind schedule - listening to the Free Beer and Hotwings show ('coz they're pretty funny.)
The news comes on. I kinda tune it out because that's what I do. Then I catch a name from my past; a girl with whom I went to school, hung out with at each other's houses and passed notes to and from in history class.
She killed her mother and tried to kill her other half, then tried to slit her own throat and wrist back in June, and is still being held on a million dollar bond.
I had to stop the jeep.
I knew her.
I knew her mother.
I can't find any info (at least very little) on the whole thing. It's so strange. I was looking at the radio (like it was gonna say something to me.) "What??!" I kept repeating this to the air.
If you'll pardon the language... I was freaked the fuck out.
I had spoken with her recently. We emailed each other up until May of this year. I hadn't heard from her for awhile. Now I know why.
Don't get me wrong; I joked about killing my mother when I was younger when I was mad at her. Didn't we all? (Didn't we?!!!) And I know that suicidal thoughts come to all of us at one point or another in our lives. (Don't they?!!!) Ok, so maybe I'm a homicidal, suicidal nut-job, but really, I wouldn't kill anyone. Well, not anymore. HEY - I did NOT carry out ANY of the seven different undetectable ways I plotted to kill my ex and his parents when they tried to steal my kids. The psychologist showed me the error of my ways. However, nearly a full box of rubber bands met its demise.
But to actually do it? And why? What could possibly have been going through her mind? Obviously this is not the same person I knew in school. Hell, I'M not the same person I was in school.
So... do tell. If you could do it and get away with it... who would it be? (No names, just descriptions and reasons why.)