07 June 2007

Things I Regret

Not marrying someone who loved me.

Having children before I grew up. I did not know who I was then, nor do I now.

Not joining the Military and travelling the world. Now I want to travel, and do not have the means, or the freedom.

Listening to others' advice who had ulterior motives.

Giving up a full academic scholarship to college to have children. FREE FUCKING RIDE. DUMBASS.

Loving people too much who don't deserve it.

Not applying for the CIA or FBI.

Too much therapy. I can talk myself out of anything now.

Not partying more when I was younger. Ultra-responsible was I.

Allowing others to convince me I am worthless, stupid, fat, (insert other negative adjective here) and then becoming those.

Not having my teeth straightened.

Not growing my hair out really long when I could.

Letting my best friend go. Not by choice.

Taking in a cat.

Trusting people.

Not being a fucking barbie doll.

Becoming a hermit, because it's easier.

*head spinning*
*chest hurting*
back to autopilot


Anonymous said...

SPREAD the word

Miss B said...

gotta love the caring human spirit...


Tater said...

Hey don't blame the cat!! Although I do feel like kicking mine from time to time...

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” Mark Twain

Always loved that quote, gave me the courage to strike out on my own and basically not fear failure, even though failure has always been my greatest fear. When you're back to yourself, quit worrying about what you wished you had done, and start worrying about what you'll wish you'd done twenty years from now.

Yeah, you missed some opportunities, so don't make the same mistake again. ;-)

In a couple of years, the kids will be grown, and you'll be fancy free, might want to start preparing for whatever adventures you care to enjoy!


Tater said...


Loved the "fucknut" comment!

George said...

Isn't hindsight great? or depressing?

We can all look back and see how utterly stupid we were at times. Much of which can be youthful stupidity but the scary part is when we look back to adult stupidity ... when we should have know better.

Don't think about what you missed out on, think about the good times you had and the better times you will have.

Miss B said...

tater ~

i like that saying... only i've forgotten how to dream.

george ~

i believe too much hindsight can be depressing - i KNOW it can!
a little is good for the soul, but man, it's a fine line, isn't it?

Wien. said...

I read your list and was saying to myself, 'done that', 'me too', 'that happened to me'. At least we can look back and say what the fuck were we thinking!!??? and still smile about today. Well, most days anyway.

When I was teaching we recited the Salutation of the Dawn from the Sanskrit, Mon. - Fri. Sept - June, for 20 years. I have to remind myself to practice what I preached....Yesterday is only a dream and tomorrow is only a vision, but today well lived makes every yesterday a dream of happiness and every tomorrow a vision of hope... We can't go back and fix our shoulda wouldas, but we can try our best with what we've got on our plates today.